I find it weird bas have to do it!
It is amazing how being nasty gets you places & makes one have his/her way! As much as I hate being rude (deliberately), as much results I seem to achieve when I act like an @$$! Excuse my French!
Really, on personal levels, I have noticed that acting like a snobby jurky person and being “loud” about what I think gets the attention of people; though I totally realize that this is not the effect / impression I want them to have in their minds, especially the decent people who are not my enemies or potential enemies ! Yeah, unfortunately – I categorize people in my head as friends or foes, no Grey area, which is totally wrong and I am learning to change this but along the way, I have encountered individuals that are lel asaf, a total waste of my time, efforts & friendship and I used to come so hard on myself for their loss and grief and get so tensed up, bas as a friend once said: “Elly maye3eddek fayda, late3edda rasmal”.
I have been blessed these days with peace of mind and total relaxation from the anger & hurt which I had been feeling for quite a while now… I felt that I lost so many important persons, yet came to the conclusion that this may be for the best …. I dunno, some people left a strong influence in my heart and life and as they ripped me out, dido !
I had a crazy idea yesterday, how about I leave and go work in the States or England? What is it like there?? For Arabs I mean? I might toughen up a bit!
May 25th, 2006 at
I lost a friend. I’m almost over that now.
May 25th, 2006 at
Isn’t it just annoying when you lose people who you thought are your best friends, when all the masks fall and the ugly truth appears .. I just grief over the memories o el3eshra .. Hopefully, I will get over this soon. The concept of jurks and worthless crap getting the best in life just doesn’t seem fair to me. Ady allah o ady 7ekmeto