My ethical dilemma <— Contemplating recent decisions
I have been wrestling, mentally for a couple of years now for the “Right & Wrong” as I conceive these notions. It is weird that I feel secluded from the rest… always have the feeling that I am wrong and endure harsh criticism from practically ANY one, even if their opinions never really matter bus I take it seriously. Unfortunately, that left me resistant to change is someway and also not allowing people to get close to me on a personal level, lacking trust in people most of the times and in myself always. It worries me that I am becoming a judgmental person. From first impressions I tend to formulate an opinion and that first impression is mostly wrong for me! That’s why I am growing up! I have endured a lot lately and took some harsh “loving”; I honestly tried my “bestest” best to have things work out for me as I wished for my whole life but unfortunately, there is a saying and it goes something like this: “Sit down without changing, time will show you how people around you change” … if you get the meaning behind that then you’ll understand, like I did, that I am someway or another on the right path and I do not have to necessarily take a detour to have companion, if the end of that road leads to mishaps and frustration. Are friends any good if they hurt you? Are friends truly worth it when they neglect you? Or be self centered?? I’m not talking about anyone specific, it is a basic role of life I identified.. I learn to let go and not necessarily do what others do about doing to “fit in” or feel good about myself and to impress.
I am fine 7amdellah and enshallah as days pass, will be even better.
