When Pink turns Purple then ends up Black…
I know that I tend to exaggerate things sometimes bas that’s in my blood – I am weird! It runs in me being such a cynic person I mean… nothing around me makes me feel better.. some things & people do but it’s like a good Kodak moment .. nothing lasts for ever..
Am I depressed? Well, kinda! I had a shitty day – one full of tears & my heart hurts people – it really hurts :(
“Ignore”, “let it go”, “he knows you are good & he will lose you then appreciate that” are some encouragement words I got from my mom & Blue (my baby). My dad agrees for once on this, he advised I move on.. quit after I find another job. I don’t think my old heart can take it anymore…
“Embrace your dimwitness” Problem is it’s not easy for a person like me! I am VERY ambitious – in a self destructive way I mean not the mean way! I kill myself to get things done running through meticulous details.. I hate that!
Do you find yourself walking like a shadow between the crowd? Do you master the art of hiding your pain from people? A laughter that you wear in spite of how angry or sad you are?
I look at faces & think: “are they sad too!?” – “what does she have to worry about when she looks like that?” – “why is this person walking sluggishly?”
Do they feel the same? Do they go home to curl up in bed thinking how bad things are going on with them?
Masters of disguise? Smartness or a defense mechanism? I wonder….
Human nature is funny..
This Pink is Blue now!
October 18th, 2007 at
7abeebti :**
Beleive in ur self .. and the rest is history!
October 18th, 2007 at
How can you appreciate the goodness in your life if you’re not allowed a taste of the bitterness?
I’m sorry you had to go through that which I’m sure was awful but let’s think about the positives you’re gaining out of this. For one, you’re gaining experience. Two, everything happens for a reason and maybe there’s something better for you out there or who knows how things will end where you are right now.
Sweetie you’re bound to get through these ups and downs and trust me it makes you plenty stronger =) So give yourself the chance to mourne your pain and then focus on recharging your spirit. You’re still very young and maaaaaaaaaaaaaaany opportunities are ahead of you.
Allah yaktib ili fee ilair lich wili feeh sa3adtich o ra7tich :***
October 18th, 2007 at
Salamt qalabek :)
We’re all here for you, and Just remember you got us in your side.
:)
October 18th, 2007 at
babe dunno what to say to u *hug* *mwah*
October 18th, 2007 at
I don’t know what to say dear, but I do hope things get better. If you are an ambicious person and not happy with your current job, I think you should quit but like you dad says after you find another one. But, do you know what you want to do? It’s funny when you are studying you think you are going to do this and that but afterwards reality hits you hard.. Suddenly it’s hard tor each where you want to go. I have always wanted to be a writer/photographer in a news paper or something like that, you know like those cool gals in the movies lol but I didn’t. At least I write in my blog lol, that’s a plus..
But, Still, you should try at least to be hopeful, and try to look at the good things in your life, that ought to make you feel better..
October 18th, 2007 at
Awww 7beebti *hugs you tighttttt*
I feel the same way. Actually when they tell me, “Move on” and like what you mentioned.. I get more tear-y! Nafs laman wa7da tabchee wayed w tes2eleenha shino 9ayer, she cries more :(
Inshallah things will get better. Remember Perfecty will always be there for you!
October 18th, 2007 at
im sorry ur feeling blue, maybe if ur not getting wat u need from ur job that its time to find something better, ambition is not self-destructive, at least not in my opinion, go after wat u want, in the way that ur accustomed to, im sure if u dnt give it a 110% u wnt be satisfied with wat ur doing anyway
i hope u feel pink again soon babes :*
October 18th, 2007 at
*hugs Chikapappi*
Mophead hydrangeas is a kind of flower that can turn from blue hydrangeas to more pinkish hydeangeas by just adding lime to the soil….
things will get better inshalla!
October 18th, 2007 at
cheer up. if this job is depressing you then quit without looking back. You need a vacation from all this. But at the same time stay optimistic about matters and don’t think too much
October 18th, 2007 at
You have to go through things like this in life.. and this isnt the worst thing that could happen.. You have a strong degree which can easily get you another job… the right job is one which doesnt make you feel like this… life is to short, dont let things get to you … if you get another job and quit, maybe they’ll run after you offering a higher salary ;) Why dont you do salat el estekhara?
October 18th, 2007 at
The hell with people that don’t know what they have.
Leave them, they deserve what they will suffer once you’re gone.
And then, you can look back at them and point and laugh maniacally.
Trust me on this.
Here’s something that works like a tonic for me. Read all the way to the end:
http://www.generationterrorists.com/quotes/sunscreen.html
October 18th, 2007 at
I agree with yara! salat estekhara maybe !
and you have to let it out. so let it out. scream!
just let it out this phase has to happen you cant do anything
about it…inshalla it will pass soooooooon!
pink suits you better ;)) so dont lose it…
October 18th, 2007 at
“Let it go. Let it roll right off your shoulders. Dont you know? The hardest part is over…”
I recommend listening to this song. Rob Thomas - Little Wonders.
Has some nice words we can live by.
October 18th, 2007 at
well today is always a good day to start lifting weights!
October 18th, 2007 at
Oh ! the silence …
Where art thou ? Take it easy dear !
When it comes to sharing hurts .. i am real loud .. an ant bites me and the whole world knows about it … …. but thats me … no secrets … life is just an open book !
October 18th, 2007 at
i’ve been in your position, i was so depressed at my last job, not for the same reasons, but I turned into a completely different person.. it was really hard, i discussed leaving a few times with my parents, and they were semi-supportive, until finally i decided (overnight) that life was too short and i had to leave. Honestly, I’ve been much happier since I left and I don’t regret, I learned a lot being there, and i definitely could have benefitted from staying longer, but it would have come at the cost of my happiness!! Which is totally not worth it!!! And on the other note, I always feel like people feel like i’m a happy person, like I give off that vibe, when inside I don’t feel that way… maybe that’s just the way life is? I don’t know.. I wonder too if everyone feels the same way I do… I hope not… and I hope that I can change it!! Good luck sweetie and hope you feel better :**
October 18th, 2007 at
…………………………………………………. !!! *cries*
October 18th, 2007 at
nope, I am not master of disguise nor do I have intentions of hiding my disappointment. It’s always written on my face and I prefer it that way!
October 18th, 2007 at
Heyyyyy dont cry!!!! I hope you feel better soon… Smile cuz that when you look real pinky :D
October 18th, 2007 at
Sometimes it helps to cry for a little. But always look on The bright side, and remember that Life’s a piece of shit When you look at it.
You should let it go girl … I assure you that there is nothing worth shedding tears over.
The worst thing in life is to see a woman crying …So …. stop girl please.
October 18th, 2007 at
” ?????? ??????? ?? ???” no one is 100% happy, 3adi hathy ildenya.
you’re not weird, life can hard and not always fun .. It can be very cruel sometimes in a way that i can not explain it! bs keep using encouragement words, it helps :*
ta3awithay mn iblees everything will be ok inshallah :***
October 18th, 2007 at
awww honney! don’t keep anything bottled up inside, we’re all here for you *huuuuug* hope you feel better
October 18th, 2007 at
I’m never able to hide my feelings. I smile when I’m happy. I have a blank look when I’m worried. I have a pissed off expression when I’m angry. It has to show.
About ambition, remember Macbeth?