Oh God!
I couldn’t sleep… I am contemplating death right now for some weird reason!
We are vessels, we carry our souls which would one day go back to our creator.. I try to have happy thoughts on that, no am not scared although am not putting 100% effort into rectifying my life & I started thinking..
We get to leave everything behind, all the shit that we care about is gone & it won’t do us any good..
What if one has the option to take something with him - her to the after life?? You think my thinking has gone too far? Maybe exceeded limits?! Well, ok! Bas I am entitled to my own thoughts & this is my diary!
I kept on thinking of my family; My hard working father, my amazing mother & my crazy siblings… I want them with me. I never want to lose them.. I never want to be away. Is that too hard to ask for God??!
Allah yesame7ny..
November 4th, 2007 at
Oh that’s so touching, made me cry :( We need the cheerful Chika *Kiss*
November 4th, 2007 at
sh9ayer?
November 4th, 2007 at
oh chika.. don’t be sad.. wallah suicidal thoughts can make you very sick..
just try not to sit on the computer and just heek.. lay down and not think..
November 4th, 2007 at
I think about this everyday…. especially the ‘after life’ concept. I can’t even sleep because of it. I hope you’ll feel better soon. I feel the same way too.
November 4th, 2007 at
Hopefully you’ll see them all in Heaven once all is said and done., so go to sleep, Chika :)
I’m actually awake ’cause I’m hungry :(
November 4th, 2007 at
very valuable suggestion: go to youtube and watch “hold on” by good charlotte! you can also read my post about the song which I listen to when I feel the way you’re feeling:
http://diaryofasoom.blogspot.com/2007/09/this-song-doesnt-fail-to-lift-me-up.html
November 4th, 2007 at
I would take an air-conditioner. It’ll be quite hot in hell :)
November 4th, 2007 at
But Chicka have you ever thought we are the souls you claim we are carrying? Individualizing your character to your body is just too materialistic when you talk about death, I am sure when I die my loved ones will miss me as the life of my body rather than my body and the same goes to you. I do believe when a person dies they understand that what made them get attached to their loved ones is the thought of them rather than the individual (hard-working father, loving mother, crazy siblings). Don’t you think so?
November 4th, 2007 at
I just got a SMS from Boobie that he is very upset that you are not “taking” him with you …. :P .
November 4th, 2007 at
Thought you were contemplating suicide…
everyone thinks bout death but its not worth thinkin about no one really knows so enjoy your life instead of holding things off for the afterlife
November 4th, 2007 at
LOL! on Grey, hahaha.
Why would you want to take anyone with you?
they will have their own journy (suffering)… its all in the rules
you will catch them in the after life inshalla .
meaning heaven.
November 4th, 2007 at
I was reading this post and the next one (which you stopped the comments on- and I see why). First of all, you can do and say whatever you want, you wanna cuss? Do it. Write swear words all over your posts, it helps, I promise (I do it all the time). And as for the retards that comment on your posts, this is the best way to handle it. First of all, dont even display their comments. Secondly, you know the people who say shit to you for no reason are just gay ass motherfuckers that release their frustration on you.
November 4th, 2007 at
As for the suicidal thoughts, you seem to be a practicing muslim so I’m sure you know that if you do it you’re going to hell. You don’t even have to think of hell as a fiery pit, just think of hell as a return to this life (the one that you want to leave). Therefore suicide wont accomplish too much. Also, exactly like you said think of your mother who will definitely end up blaming herself (its what mothers do). Would you really want to cause your mother that much pain just to get rid of your own? Atleast kill a couple of people before you kill yourself, you might find that you enjoy killing others enough to keep yourself alive…..
November 4th, 2007 at
Goddamnit Chika! I hate your miniature comment box! Anyway, like I was saying, you should exhaust every option before ending your life. For example, get up book and a flight to Kalamazoo and leave. You might think “oh my parents will be pissed….etc” but they’d be more pissed if you were dead. Do what you have to do to stay alive. People who tell you that they’d prefer your death over you [insert activity here], obviously only care for themsleves an not your and you should disregard them.
Now, the first step is, if you’ve had these feelings and thoughts for more than two continuous weeks you should go see a doctor. The doctors might be no help and retards, if they are tell them “fuck you” and leave. Atleast THAT will make you feel better….
November 4th, 2007 at
Laa, I ain’t killing myself YET - I got unfinished business on this stupid planet ;)
November 4th, 2007 at
& my sursing seems to be an issue on the blogsphere! As if someone sleeping around isn’t! LOL! walla people are crazy & weird! I still consider myself sane in comparison with what I see around
November 4th, 2007 at
ma feeyi 3eeesh without u…:p
November 4th, 2007 at
LOL!!!
November 6th, 2007 at
il9ara7a i’m all for cursing… wilee mo 3ajba, la yigra!