Midlife Crisis…
Whether is really exists or not.. whether it’s one’s owen personal manifestation of fear and anxiety of the future with all it’s dark aspects; It sure sucks standing at crossroads, simply and utterly confused with what to do with the rest of your life which so far also sucked!
Midlife crisis, I do not really associate it with actual age you know; One can be more mature or less in some cases than her / his age saying that, I do feel like I am 80 years old! I grew tired and weary of everything and it doesn’t really matter any more..
DO you know when you just let things go carelessly? that’s what has been going on with me for the last 4 years.. I completely let people take over my life and push me around the whole time and I grew very angry and sick of it, short tempered now I am confused about my identity…
What do I want to be? Where am I heading? Who do I trust? How do I react? Isn’t that lame and pathetic!? You can tell that I have been acting really strange for quite some while now….
I do not log on to MSN anymore.. Skype too! Blogging is not as passionate to me as it used to.. I stick to FB and even that has become a marginal activity exclusive to poking!
I am in my own vortex, a nasty one which seems to be taking me down and I ain’t fighting for survival.. I think I am enjoying this “suffocating” feeling and it’s like I am isolating myself.
I have kept both phones switched off most of the time; I am hiding away from people.. It’s just not fun to interact with me when I am like that friends, believe me… I am not so keen on activities as well… not anything even…
I have a huge of list of things bugging me, just not to opened up to the idea of sharing with anyone at the time being…
January 26th, 2008 at
It’s the sign of modern times I guess … many people are just … lost .. aimless!
Find a cause, be passionate about it..
Good luck
January 26th, 2008 at
Blogging doesnt intrest you ? I think you are ready to break the shell ! Welcome world !
January 26th, 2008 at
does this mean ur gonna buy a porsche? ;D
January 26th, 2008 at
you think too much.. (look who’s talking).. but you should stop thinking about the past and the future, and think about the present. you are beautiful and very lovable (u saw what happened the other day!). enjoy the things you have, and get rid of all the negative energy. start making changes, and hopefully things will get better.
January 26th, 2008 at
Not everyone is secure and happy.. You just have the shake that feeling off and go about life hoping for the best.. That’s what we all do!
January 26th, 2008 at
Calm down and go with the flow.
January 27th, 2008 at
I do get those from time to time. It’s what keeps you ahead :) Hopefully you’ll find your way soon, although please don’t call it midlife crisis, ’cause I’m old as you are, and now I’m starting to feel bouts of crisis… :( Besides, midlife is when you can’t realistically double your age. You’re good for now :)
Take time off as you need. We’ll be waiting for you with open arms.
January 27th, 2008 at
It’s just a phase and it will pass soon.. I once kept my mobile turned off for a whole week. and had to write some numbers on a paper just in case I would need to call them for emergency! and then I changed my mobile number without giving it to anyone ..! so believe me that’s normal.. play some computer brainless games with music, it helps, or just get a book.. do something different. It’s normal to get bored suddenly from all the things you were passionate about.
January 27th, 2008 at
i dont know what to say ..
i wish there was this magical thing that needs an approval of so many friends so you can turn one friend so happy ..
and i believe ..
you have more than it needs to make that magical thing happen ..
look around you .
wisely .. and closely ..
January 27th, 2008 at
If you ever need to talk … we are here for you …
inshallah you’ll get past this stage .. i think everyone goes through this phase … some more than others .. i think it is perfectly normal
January 27th, 2008 at
I Have Been there,,, Inshallah With Time Things will work themselves out and one by one things will get better. If you need to talk Im always here for you :)
January 27th, 2008 at
inshalla this is just a phase and you will pass it really quick…
we all feel like that at one point sad2eeni, things are gonna be just fine.
good luck chika and cheer up :)
January 27th, 2008 at
Stay safe, girl!
January 27th, 2008 at
‘been there too but things always gonna be fine insha Allah,,,just give yourself what it needs…midlife crisis is normal and it is part of our growing up, so don’t worry, just think positively! cheers :)
January 27th, 2008 at
Thinking too much, is something I do too.. Nobody is happy all the time.. some people’s life is filled with stuff and things to do, yet still feel something is missing.. it’s really strange..
Thing is, like Enigma, don’t think of yesterday and tomorrow, just today.. for the moment ..
Qwaider.. sometimes we do have something we are passionate about but we are too afraid to go ahead and do it or underestimate our abilities..
At the moment, I am living for my kids, my husband and family.. but I feel I lost myself somewhere in there.. I need to do something for me.. I am trying to figure that out at the moment..
So just take things easy, day by day and don’t be alone too much, it drives you crazy! You have sisters right? Talk with them, talking with someone you know and especially related to really helps..
January 27th, 2008 at
I feel the same exact way. *hugs*
January 27th, 2008 at
Wow! Would the real chika please stand up!?
Seriously, I have one word of advise for you: We all feel this way at times, some days I feel 70 and other days I feel 17.. Youv’e just gotto hang in there girl, this too shall pass! And btw, thanks for sharing :)
January 30th, 2008 at
Do you think that perhaps mid-life crises and associated behaviour are just a manifestation of someone truly comprehending their mortality ?
January 30th, 2008 at
what is it now? thought you were pissed off at me, turns out you’re gonna go through the entire blog cuz of Cojo! tsk tsk tsk! and who appointed you as my shrink!!
January 30th, 2008 at
I thought that the point of this site/blog was to encourage a dialogue. You should be prepared for responses that differ from your own opinions, no ? I did not go through your entire blog because of Cojo. I was curious is all.
Chikapappi, I am not ‘pissed off’ with you. I do not even know you.
Shrink ? Hmmm..now you sound angry with me. My remark was an innocent comment in reponse to your musings about mid-life, not an attempt to analyze you.
January 30th, 2008 at
I do have responses but it’s past midnight and I gotta be up early :$ for work you know! and I tend to have this defensive mechanism since I received my good share of cussing from this blog and some posts so pls… discard the angry replies.. I am a nice person “deeeeeeep, deeeeeep deeeeep” down inside :) I tend to be aggressive and surely you’ll find that valid. I just left you a comment saying that am happy that we are on good terms now.. check the latest post. bye for now! zzz
January 30th, 2008 at
Sweet dreams. Do not apologize for being human. I am happy that we are squared away too. I enjoyed reading your blog.