Shanti
I am a self proclaimed “Anti Shanti” !! What does Shanti mean? check [ HERE ] … This is all from Enigma :p and her weird ideas, she thinks I should be introduced to some Shanti seeking individuals who will knock some sunshine in me, eh!!
I love new age music and this one is great
So, dim the lights in your room and get your pot - beverage and sit in a Buddha position and meditate.. think of your day… the past few week… those few years.. your life in general. What have you done? What are those milestones that you proudly crossed? Did you develop yourself in a professional way? Are you really satisfied? Contemplate more..
I hate thinking of the past, the now and the future ALTHOUGH this exhumes my energy, my sanity and literally my brain cells.. I am tired!
When am on the verge of a having a nervous breakdown I usually lock myself into isolation, I stay away from those I know including family members. I have what you locals call “fa9lat” and I snap with some sort of weird reaction and when things settle = I come to peace with those circumstances, I come back to my “normal” self again…. Which is not mature I know and I am aware there are alot of other ways to handle some of this stress like being closer to Allah by reading Quran for instance but I am afraid I am starting to drift away.. that’s no lie…
Instead, I found it easier to open the laptop and start a new document then type down all these angry emotions.. I sit for a while reading them a couple of times then delete it… It’s like venting to the computer <-- I know, clear evidence of a mentally disturbed person!
You see, some think I have a communications problem and I figured out today that I really need to work on my rusty social skills. I am missing out on alot of things because of this mentality. I try to suck up my anger, I fight my demons to avoid hurting those I love but I can’t help it! Sometimes you might not understand what’s inside of me, what I went through or going through yet I manage to fake a smile every now and then.. no body knows it except me and that’s how it will always be…
This is a very depressing post :/
July 22nd, 2008 at
chika,
i write my personal posts and some comments in a word document and leave it there for a day, i come back and look at it with a fresh mind, i have to say, most of them got deleted lol.
July 22nd, 2008 at
Capricorn:) I am on the right steps I guessJuly 23rd, 2008 at
Te he he…A depressing post but you certainly brought the humourous side of it :)
July 23rd, 2008 at
Ooooo….I just realised this is one of my favourite tracks off the Buddha bar dream album!
July 23rd, 2008 at
lol but u need this depression to be knocked out of u
July 23rd, 2008 at
I just grit my teeth and try to get through the day …..
July 23rd, 2008 at
yeah classic capricorn hun :* its not depressing its just the way we are ya3ni shloon! we dont go poking around at the crazieness of the other you knows like the scorpio’s 7adith wla 7araj or watever the saying is…
we all deal with things according to our nature and we need not be apologetic or sad about it
6ab3an i know the theory but i cant apply it on myself either :D
July 23rd, 2008 at
*hugs*
July 23rd, 2008 at
Take a dip in the sea. It always helps me. You can imagine your bathtub as a big vast ocean in case you don’t like to swim in the not very clean waters of the Arabian Gulf
July 23rd, 2008 at
Come to Sadhu Sri Sri Sri Grey.. and you will find peace …
When i get stressed i close the door and ” SCREAM” .. and im OK ! try it..
July 23rd, 2008 at
Hay hay hay bhai :p - I sometimes scream.. not at home, in the car while driving! I know it helps.. I wish I would find like an isolated area, a hill where I can stand up there and shout my lungs out!
July 23rd, 2008 at
Hmm..I’m out of pot..and bullets. Need to buy both ASAP.
July 24th, 2008 at
so om (aum) is shanti?
July 24th, 2008 at
Believe it or not, I had no social skills prior to entering college.
In fact I threw up every time before I left my dorms room.
Now you can’t shut me up :)
Your best cure is what we call is psychology “flooding”. Throw yourself in the situation repeatedly and your mind will have to break at one point and just cease seeing your fears as a threat.
There’s no cure to claustrophobia better than being locked in a room.
July 28th, 2008 at
you should start yoga. walla it works, when i get very messed up and the chronic insomnia starts up again it really truly is the ONLY thing that works.