I am haunted by this notion ever since I’ve let certain people into my “cyber life” and although I’ve contemplated the idea of blocking - removing - erasing some of them I thought, well they would still have access to me through other common friends and here I specifically mean Face Book. It’s weird when you have this sense of insecurity even though you are sure that you are not doing something out of the norm, I mean it’s only some pics that you upload or certain useless information but to others that like more than enough to ruin your life.. sick people! I will block you soon :) - I edited the profile so you can’t see shit anymore…

I couldn’t sleep in spite the fact that I slept from 1:30 AM yesterday till like 8 PM same day and I am feeling sleepy right now but it’s because of the “spiked” punch which is only Red Bull and Orange Juice plus the non stop dancing for hmm.. around 3 hours!! I totally gave my soul up on Wednesday and kept all my worries aside and by that I refer to the previous post.

Let’s get back to the topic, I accepted a comment today informing me that I was being bashed on a blog so I check it out and turns out some idiot is using my nickname and link writing stupid comments which are clearly not mine.. I mean, I won’t write stuff like that. It’s so stupid that a person would act like such a loser, stealing my identity to mess around.. I do not have anything to say to this person…. err.. I am helpless when it comes to dumb people, I do not have what is required to fight back anymore and anyways, HAPPY BLOGGING you idiot! :)

This is what I meant by online safety, how can one feel comfortable enough to express his - her self and share identities when the world is full of jerks! No sure who will do what and when to your pictures - name - email etc.. I watched this happen to a couple of bloggers before and again on Facebook! How does it feel when you open a blog or facebook to see your pictures and people forging your comments - facts to strangers who are dying for gossip material in this lousy world!?

Most importantly, why do some people deliberately hurt and offense others even when they do not know them in person?! What ever happened to freedom of expression in all its forms?!

I seriously feel like crack opening my skull, sticking both my hands in and literally pulling out all those bad ideas and delusions that effect me on a nearly daily basis.. I am so sick of myself! It reached a level where I am doubting God with all the bad luck I am going through or my mishaps! It’s not real I swear!

My basic problem now is marriage, especially me being close to my third decade and that’s not helping at all… It’s not that I don’t get attention from guys or it’s not like no one proposed but I am lost or should I say confused when it comes to making a decision about a life partner - let’s call it a case of “cold feet” although when time comes “enshallah” I won’t be a runaway bride!

Too many red lines one has to be careful not to cross and it’s vital that both the guy and the gal are aware of what they are going into because I hate it when someone acts upon an impulse!! Marriage is eternal to me.. no divorce is allowed in my family so I expect the same for me..

It’s just hard for me to “go down” a bit - lower the bar for the guys who propose, I mean I waited that much and I deserve something good.. if not better than other at least! I am not being envious but life is not fair when it comes to certain women getting the “best” according to this life time and I know I am drifting away from religion especially lately but how people act with me doesn’t make it better!

- Do not control me… I would give in to you with just a simple smile on your face or a tender look into my eyes

- Do not take me away from things that I like, this is what makes me as a human being

- I love having friends and I’d REALLY love to be with my man amongst a group of friends and be proud of him

- Religion is about tolerance not forcing someone to do what YOU want and use the excuse: “Because I want the best for you”! it drives me crazyyyyy!!!

I am not happy at all… I am social… I will never stop being social… I need a man… I would love to have kids… I need to settle down.. No need to do it by suffocating and killing my soul.

I want to continue studying… I want to travel the world… I want to have fun… I want to love madly and go willlllllllld!

I am OUT!

I was craving omelette at office one day so I log on to 6alabat and search for a cafe that would deliver the same and I stumble across this place.. placed an order and it took like forever to get to me and when it does it’s cold… it doesn’t look very good… it doesn’t taste good BUT I shoved it down my throat and had that crave out of my system…

then I found out today that Frankom wrote about a similar experience [ HERE ]

No problemo so far huh.. ok, I was hungry today morning and the best option was saj but unfortunately for those of us working in Souk Al Kbeer, the cafe downstairs serves cockroaches with their platters so again, logged on to 6alabat and AGAIN Gaudi is there so I was like what the heck, why not!!!

ORDER ACCEPTED BY GAUDI AT 9:13 AM !!! It is 11:30 and the delivery guy was here like less than 5 minutes ago!! LOOOOL

I had to send him back…

1. I contacted 6alabat online twice for help and I didn’t get anything
2. I tried looking for Gaudi’s contact numbers till Skinny Bee got it so I called the place instead of them calling me to apologize for the delay!!! OMGGGG! I CALLED NOT THEM!
3. I informed the dude I was out of office to cancel the order but he insists the guy is downstairs yet I told him cancel and he said ok!
4. After 15 minutes of my phone conversation with the guy on the phone the driver shows up!!!! DUUUUH!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH! What kind of customer service is this!!! Come on!! COME ON!

GAUDI = NO GOODY !

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Post two:

I love when anger moves me! lol - second rant for the day!

It’s been what!? 3 weeks now and it’s still Blue and blood is clotted inside walla under God knows where! It’s killing me because it looks bad! people stare! EH!! I tried cutting the nail off myself no use! I tried scraping it no use! I massaged it no use!

I EVEN SAID I ACCEPT having the finger completely off bas pls make that blue thing go away!

Any suggestions!?

P.S: Toe picture goes well with the omlette’s! LOL

On another note, [ Zaboo6a ] passed me one of the necklaces below - the “Hoogla Boogla” necklace as I called it, inspired by the African culture! She does them herself and I think they are cute since they are made from clips! Laundry clips!!

check them out!

So I decided to resume where I stopped and go get myself another certificate to add on the CV in hopes of landing a better job! I was checking for something online when I found the AUM thingie - you know! the one with the “ARE YOU VDS!?” phrase- which I later stated to be “ARE YOU VERY DEPRIVED SEXUALLY!?” ! <– never mind that! So I call and of course I had the “Oh we are fully done and all seats are taken BUT you can come in and talk to the adviser!” uuuuhaa! to cut this story short, MBAs from that place with association of Human Soft would cost around 7K ! kaaak! I am better off with a new car! I mean, what would another piece of paper do to me if I ain’t got wasta!? Orrrr I am stupid!!! Screw MBAs! OK! Well, also in Bahrain- there’s this university that offers programs - no places and it’s around 2000 KDs cheaper!

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2. What’s up with the weather!!?

NO COMMENT! you lucky bastards! yeah YOU! you who went swimming and tanning this weekend while I couldn’t! :(

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3. HAIL HITLER!

I hate to burst your bubble you Spain fans you!! I seriously hope they (Germanos) win the cup and get this crap over with!

I dedicate this song to them! I love this song!